yeahhh , and i`m startin over FRESH.
neww post coming soon :)

but i ` m qettin money every week - 2OO sounds qood to mee .



. . feel mee ?

aint shit been going on forreal - except for this MAIN nigga of mine comin in and out of my life . buttttt - for somereason , i just cannot stop him . i love this nigga to deatttthhh and he qott some gooood - - - - hA !

2eace & love my niggas


i might be back with some real posts sooon / or i might just delete this shit cause i ' m neverrrr up here .

i know we havent spoken for a while , but i was thinking about you and it kinda made me smile . so many things to say ; should `ve put it inna letter but , this might be easier cause words may come out better . how 's your mother ? how 's your little brother ? does he still look just like you ? so many things i wanna know the answers to . . I wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story of me and you . excuse me , i really didnt mean to ramble on , but there are alot of feelings that have remained since you ' ve been gone . I guess you thought that I wouldve put it all behind me , but it seems there ' s always something right there to remind me . like a silly joke , or something on the tv - mann , this aint easy . when I hear our song I get that same old feeling . don ' t you know i 've kept all of your pictures ? dont have the strength to part with them yet . I still can ' t erase the way your kisses taste . I wish I could turn back the hands of time and i shouldnt be telling you i ' ve tried and i ' ve tried to get you out my mind but it dont get no better as each day goes by . . i ' m lost & confused , i ' ve got nothing to lose . I hope to hear from you soon . . .

p.s. - i ' m still not over you .

was MAY29TH ; it took me a whille to post pics but here they are ..
if yu wanna see more you have to ADD me on myspace or facebook.

moving on with my lifeeeee - next time i won`t be so naive . . now on to better posts . seems like i `ve made this blog all about him & how much he pisses me off . . but hahaha - once you 've hit the bottom , you can only go up from here . .
STARTINGNEW. so you want a fucking update ? well here it goes ! i haven`t been doing SHIT , haha - well going to school & cheer then coming home & chillin . . i 'm saving mooolaah - because prom is NEXTfriday & i knowww , you guys have been waiting so see how this BADDBITCH is gonna look :) June18th needs to come a littttttttle bit more faster . . 2 more weeks of school , 3 more weeks til ` Graduation .. sounds good to mee . .
& so i `ve met some people . . nothing special , just a couple fellas to pass the time until i go to college. i `ve been watching "TheGame" alll week long & i kinda want what Melanie & Derwin have , but just not right noww - ANYWAYS , i 'm abstinent ! it 's harddddd - but i ' m doing it :)
i told youuuu - i 'm qonna make it ! fuck that dirty ass nigga . .
haha - i L yu followers for stickin in even when i wasn`t here .
-kaycee.
ohhh & i ' m on twitterrrr ! twitter.com/omqaawdkaay
orrr myspacee - myspace.com/theeqirlyualwayswishedfor or something like that - that shit is old ! hahah .
<3

how 's my life been , qood ? i quess . . exBOYFRIEND & I have officially ended our lonq winded relationship .
maybe it 's not supposed to happen because i dont want it to --- but , maybe it 's meant to be this wayy .
he doesnt want to be my friend - he doesn ' t wanna talk to me , but EY ! i cant force you to do anything you dont wanna do . .
regardless - i love the boy to deeeaath .
anywayss - since we ' ve broken upp , i 've been dating guyss .. . it 's kinda wierd thoo - i 'm only doing it to really keep myself busy . .
i dont want these guys forreal , but since i cant have what i want , i quess i have to settle .
on a better note - PROM IS NEXT WEEKEND ! and i will DEFINATELY have pictures of the long awaited dress that i ' ve been waiting to reveal to all of my followers . .
i 've also jumped on the TWITTER bandwagon, lol . . .
i thought i wouldnt , but heeey - it 's kinda funnn !
twitter.com/omqaawdkaay . .hah .
anyways - SOL WEEK & i definately don thave school til 1O . . soo aim or texttt .
laterr .

i 've just been soo bussyyyyy !
i 'll be back soon , i swear i 'm not avoiding you .

i'm so behind on updates - i 've been extremely bussyyyyyyy & stressed . .

Keri Hilson's new album is the SHIIIIIT !

my 5 year old cousin knows all the songs .

i think i may actually buy this albumm instead of downloading

=D

anywaysss . . shits tight .

& if yu havent heard - Diddy got rid of all the DK girls .

now it 's just Dawn .

i wonder what tricks she 's got up here sleeves .

& btw , D.Woods gets on my NERVES .

read

http://avalovething.blogspot.com/

my bestfriends blog ;

she 's a starter .

but - just readdd =D

thannnx .

ALL

females want to be . .

" lonq haired , thick , red bones "

what about the . .

short haired , skinny [ or fat ] , dark skinned girls ?

if i see that damn saying one more time !

i 'm qonna loose it .

qot it ?

BAM .

i sat here for about 2O mins staring at this picture & trying to figure out what i wanted to name this . all of my past posts about my 'boyfriend' have all been a little harsh i must admit . now i 've come to a point to realize things about our relationship . REAL LOVE , is exactly what we have . as much as we fight , argue , say how much we hate each other , etc . . we love each other deeep down inside . right now , we just cannot do this with each other . . we both are trying to do our OWN things , going to college & making something of ourselves . we had our lives planned out around each other . the kids , the house in Florida , the nice things , and most of all the love . that sounds to me like the PERFECT ending to my life being with the guy i ' m most in love with - the two perfect litttle children the nice house and the puppy . . i saw my future with him & for it to end was it was kind of hard for us in the beginning of our separation but , i know now that it 's for the better . For right now , i 'm closing that chapter in my life . After June 18th 2009 , i will be writing a new & improved version of me . . the sexier side of me , the nicer side , the more loveable side , the content side , the new me ! Jeraud, i wishh you all the luck in the world , i hope you prosper with everything you doo . I will always remember & love youu .. you were my first , & hopefully when all is said and done ; you 'll find me in your future as your last . last night , i recieved this text on my sisters phone .. i took it as a complete shock !it was VERY unexpected . seeing as tho , we really have no words to say to each other when we ' re around & that we dont talk on the phone and we dont spend time with each other - i was COMPLETELY SHOCKED! no doubt , i was happy as shit ! lOl .

and if you were wondering , i DO love and miss him too .

i 've been accepted . =]

my cousin Chris was the master mind behind this .the lowsy camera man was my other cousin Brandon & the Sound effects are done by Myself [ clap clap ] , Tiera , & Brian . it was funny as HELL ! they were in the back of the car KNOCKED THE FUCK OUT ! lmfaoo - we scared the shxt outta them ! if you dont understand - we were acting like we qot into a car accident ! we were swerving the car on the interstate ! hahah - soo funny . . but , i bet i 'm thee only one laughing ! lOL .

edited April 2oth 2oo9.

Trinity, Myself , & Sister .

cousin zach.

cousin chris

myself & chris .

chris again .

sister & I .

in cali !

friday - thursday .

plenty of pictures up soon .

: )

i really have nothinq much to say . .
my uncle died today . my very last uncle . the uncle that is so special to my heart . right now , i 'm in a state of depression . i jus ' need to breathe . i love you ! and tell Grandpa & Uncle Carlos how much i lovee and miss themm too !
love you sug .

until SENIOR GRADUATION NIGGAS !
i 'm SO happy . .
ugh - it cant come fast enough . .
sprinq break next weeeeek . =D
even bttr .

ohh & i qet my cell phone back in 78 days .
apparently , i 'm not " focused " enough .

so , i took my shower

EARLY !

jus' so i could watch it !

for some reason - i just felt like Tiffany was beinq SO FAKE !

like - she was tryna be all hard when she was sittinq on that couch next to Sarah and Ashley

and thennn - when they all left off the stage at the end .

herself and Cookie were talkinq about

"fixing their relationship"

thas some straight

BULLSHIT !

and , i bet this 2 dollars that i have in my bag right now ,

that Cookie punk ass fell for that shit .

& Kayla with her explaination of a fuckinq so called alter ego like Beyonce .

wtff ?

bitch , YOUR KAYLA !

aint no fuckinq alterego.

haha .

i 'm like wtff ? yu are NOT famous .

you do NOT have a nice side and a mean side .

you just one nasty ass qhetto broad who thinks she 's the shit .

Ashley , didn ' t have ANY reason to butt in on Kayla when she was talkinq to Tiffany .

i felt like she just wanted to say somethinq

just because she took Kayla ' s spot on the show . .

but , besides that . . the rest of them bitches are wack !

and none of them hoes are doinq ANYTHING with themselves .

that whole show pissed me off !

i can ' t even believe that it has actually been a year . it doesn't seem that lonq aqo since i was huqqinq you before first block evryday at Norview . til ' this day - i hate myself . because i stopped talkinq to you , the week before you past because you forqot one day to qive me a hug. i beat myself up about it every singlee day . i ' m so sorry . Louis , i lovee youu ! & save me a spot up there right next to you budd !

-kyerra.

gone but , NEVER forqotten .