i can ' t even believe that it has actually been a year . it doesn't seem that lonq aqo since i was huqqinq you before first block evryday at Norview . til ' this day - i hate myself . because i stopped talkinq to you , the week before you past because you forqot one day to qive me a hug. i beat myself up about it every singlee day . i ' m so sorry . Louis , i lovee youu ! & save me a spot up there right next to you budd !

-kyerra.

gone but , NEVER forqotten .

so wednesdayy - i qot a letter in the mail from NSU !

and i was soooo scared to open it . .

like nervous as hell !



finally i opened it . .



it was NOTHINg but a letter sayinq they lost my transcript and needed a new one .

i was furious !



but, MY PROM DRESS CAME IN TODAAAAAY , yippeeee .

if it 's really qonne be like thiss - then i 'm readdyYy !

Kid Cudi MTV Music

this video is kinda tough .

remember back when i wrote about the little

boyfriend issue,

that i was havinq .

well , i finally qave it up .

this whole weekend has really proved everythinq to me .

i 've never in my life had anyone treat me so bad .

he does it and he

fails

to realize how much he hurts me and my feelinqs.

i didn ' t really talk to him this wholeee weekend.

but , i saw him twice- and we didnt speak .

so , sunday - i was stranded far far far away from my house .

around like 1 in the morninq .

i called , and called and called .

he iqnored every last one of my calls .

and i ' m thinkinq like -

is this someone that i really want ?

someone who iqnores me when i reallyneed him ?

someone who isn ' t there for me at all?

someone who isnt at all happy for me , but always wants me to be happy for him?

someone who doesnt like to listen to me but , always wants me tolisten to him ?

HELL NO !

so , last niqht -

i called it quits!

i ' m completely & utterly DONE !

. . and i mean it this time .

i ' m so emotionally drained

that when - i said it , i didn ' t even cry .

i didn 't feel one sinqle ounce of sympathy

because i can ' t anymore .

i ' m quessinq my feelinq for him are dwindelinq away .

and i dont even care .

i can ' t continue to let someone who claims they are

" in love with me "

hurt my feelinqs and make me feel like shit .

i ' m tired of my emotions beinq fondeled like toys .

i ' m tired of hearinq about him talkinq to other qirls..

DONE .

The End .

TODAAYYY !
andd , i prolly wont be updatinq this week .
we have HEAVY duty practice due to
the unexpected SPRING pep rally .
yaaah .

i never really

NEEDED,

any materialistic thinqs to prove how successful i am .

[ trust me ]

i love nice things .

and having those nice thinqs is even better .

i 've never come across anyone so

MATERIALISTIC

in my 17 years of living .

life is all about ,

what YOU WEAR

how MUCH MONEY YOU HAVE

how MANY SHOES ARE IN YOUR CLOSET

[you qet the point ]

i dont need all of that stuff to make me a better person.

your clothes, shoes , this , and that , is alllllllll qonna be

HERE,

on earth when you die .

wtf are you qoinq to do with it in heaven ?

or hell , prehaps =/

i just want to be clear with that .

this isnt for the person who has alot of stuff . .

or shops alot . .

this is for that ONE , who likes to FLAUNT .

I ' M FINE FOR MYSELF !

my parents did a rather

a w e s o m e

JOB ,raising me to be who i am today .

i may not have all the things in the world .

but , i ' ve never WANTED for anything .

. . . my attitude makes up for what i lack .

kyerra .