neww post coming soon :)
. . feel mee ?
aint shit been going on forreal - except for this MAIN nigga of mine comin in and out of my life . buttttt - for somereason , i just cannot stop him . i love this nigga to deatttthhh and he qott some gooood - - - - hA !
2eace & love my niggas
i might be back with some real posts sooon / or i might just delete this shit cause i ' m neverrrr up here .
p.s. - i ' m still not over you .
if yu wanna see more you have to ADD me on myspace or facebook.
STARTINGNEW. so you want a fucking update ? well here it goes ! i haven`t been doing SHIT , haha - well going to school & cheer then coming home & chillin . . i 'm saving mooolaah - because prom is NEXTfriday & i knowww , you guys have been waiting so see how this BADDBITCH is gonna look :) June18th needs to come a littttttttle bit more faster . . 2 more weeks of school , 3 more weeks til ` Graduation .. sounds good to mee . .
& so i `ve met some people . . nothing special , just a couple fellas to pass the time until i go to college. i `ve been watching "TheGame" alll week long & i kinda want what Melanie & Derwin have , but just not right noww - ANYWAYS , i 'm abstinent ! it 's harddddd - but i ' m doing it :)
i told youuuu - i 'm qonna make it ! fuck that dirty ass nigga . .
haha - i L yu followers for stickin in even when i wasn`t here .
ohhh & i ' m on twitterrrr ! twitter.com/omqaawdkaay
orrr myspacee - myspace.com/theeqirlyualwayswishedfor or something like that - that shit is old ! hahah .
maybe it 's not supposed to happen because i dont want it to --- but , maybe it 's meant to be this wayy .
he doesnt want to be my friend - he doesn ' t wanna talk to me , but EY ! i cant force you to do anything you dont wanna do . .
regardless - i love the boy to deeeaath .
anywayss - since we ' ve broken upp , i 've been dating guyss .. . it 's kinda wierd thoo - i 'm only doing it to really keep myself busy . .
i dont want these guys forreal , but since i cant have what i want , i quess i have to settle .
on a better note - PROM IS NEXT WEEKEND ! and i will DEFINATELY have pictures of the long awaited dress that i ' ve been waiting to reveal to all of my followers . .
i 've also jumped on the TWITTER bandwagon, lol . . .
i thought i wouldnt , but heeey - it 's kinda funnn !
twitter.com/omqaawdkaay . .hah .
anyways - SOL WEEK & i definately don thave school til 1O . . soo aim or texttt .
i 'll be back soon , i swear i 'm not avoiding you .
my cousin Chris was the master mind behind this .the lowsy camera man was my other cousin Brandon & the Sound effects are done by Myself [ clap clap ] , Tiera , & Brian . it was funny as HELL ! they were in the back of the car KNOCKED THE FUCK OUT ! lmfaoo - we scared the shxt outta them ! if you dont understand - we were acting like we qot into a car accident ! we were swerving the car on the interstate ! hahah - soo funny . . but , i bet i 'm thee only one laughing ! lOL .
my uncle died today . my very last uncle . the uncle that is so special to my heart . right now , i 'm in a state of depression . i jus ' need to breathe . i love you ! and tell Grandpa & Uncle Carlos how much i lovee and miss themm too !
love you sug .
i 'm SO happy . .
ugh - it cant come fast enough . .
sprinq break next weeeeek . =D
even bttr .
ohh & i qet my cell phone back in 78 days .
apparently , i 'm not " focused " enough .
and i was soooo scared to open it . .
like nervous as hell !
finally i opened it . .
it was NOTHINg but a letter sayinq they lost my transcript and needed a new one .
i was furious !
but, MY PROM DRESS CAME IN TODAAAAAY , yippeeee .
if you 'd like to listen here it qoes .
She just wanna dance (UNOFFICIAL REMIX): Drake ft. Trey Songz & Sincere http://www.divshare.com/download/6766033-a20
Fresh On Campus: Sincere, Taz B, Deron
but , i listened to his new mixtape . . and it ' s pretty qood .
i didn ' t fall in l o v e .
but - his raps made a lot of since .
i ' m still qoinq to stick to my c l a s s i c k s .
B.I.G. & Jay-Z .
sorry drake .
no love here .
check them out .
. . . i qet off punishment on SUNDAAAY !calllll meee =]
basically , we broke up because he doesnt think my parents like him .. but , in all r e a l i t y ; THEY DO ! they speak highly of him all the time , always asking what he is doing and what he has been up to . really , it 's his parents that DONT LIKE Me! but whatever , do you know how many people in this world dont like me ? i could really give two shits . so - we broke up like Feb18th and i haven ' t reallly talked to him since . .
so this week i met this new guy who 's really cool - he 's one of his friends . i 've seen him around school plenty of times and i never spoke . he is acually on the basketball team that i cheer for . lOl . but besides - he 's really cool & we 've been chatting here and there on myspace and what not . someone ; out of the blue decides to tell this Ex of mine that i ' m messing with one of his friends . . you know i ' m laughin because how the hell can you get the idea that i am talking to someone based off of some damn myspace comments ? so , i ' m just extremely weakk at this .
since i dont have my cell phone right now , this EX texts my sisters cell phone asking her do i talk to this fellow . . My sister NEVER relays messages well - the next day she tells me that he texts . . i wasn ' t really thinnking about it ! because i was too busy shopping for my prom dress that i didn ' t care . like and hour and a half later he texts again & i responded . . then he 's saying that he wants to talk to me about where we stand in our relationship . . okay , well - i ' m willing to talk - but , i really dont have much to say . .i never u n d e r s t o o d the phrase " if a boy is mean to you , that means he likes you " , thas prolly the DUMBEST shit i ' ve EVER heard ! lately he was like ignoring me and stuff - so , i was just like fuck it ! i give up . so he was textiing me or whatever and i ' m not going to get into detali about what he said because it is kinda personal . . but , what he said really qot to me and made me think !
i didnt know what to say back in a since like this . . i was dazed & confused . i know if you ' ve ever REALLY been in love you know what it feels like when you break up with that person & they say = well i just want to be your friend? well , now he does . i told him that i didnt want to be his friend at all ! like - i can 't . i didn ' t realize how much i was in love with him until i just said " i dont want to be your friend " , i just CANT ! coming from always being your WIFEY since 10th grade to being belittled down to something so little as being a friend , HURTS ! i 've been trying to stray away from him a little . . . but , i dont think it 's working ! i know i love him - and i dont think i can live without him ; but , i just really think i need some space right now . . it'll help me realize what i want , and what i want to do , and who i want to be . . so for right now - my relationship is on hold ... status remains single .
i keep up with EVERY single showw , but last nights show was by far the best show that has aired this season . .
Ashley has now chosen to side with the 'fab5' which originally consists of Sarah , Tiffany, Ailea , Boston .
they play praNks on one of the Ambers that I think is a little bit too childish - if a bitch fucks with my clothes she is BOUND to get her ass spanked . even though Amber gets on my nerves about how much her clothes cost - that was still wrong !
I thought that everyone would be alllll good by going to Cancun but, in the back of my mind i knew that something wasnt going to be right . .
Tiffany is really starting to change and acting extra childish even though she was the ' mama ' of the house & everyone goes to her for guidance and blah blah blah ..
we all knew drama would start between the Ambers and The fab 5 in Cancun .
iuno why the fuck Ashley so damn PISSED over a fucking wet body contest . . and tiffany needs to chill out about that fucking Ice .. if you didnt do it oh wellllll move on ; what do you have to prove ?
the fight was VERY unfair ! iuno wtf Ailea thought she was doing but , she aint really do shit if you look at it !
Boston had noooooo right to touch the other Amber . .
but , Amber should go home too because Tiffany wasn 't really trying to do anything but break up the fight .
and Amber hit Tiffany first . .
and for the other Amber to be so ' in love ' with Cookie . . she didn 't help her at all !
i just cant WAIT till next week when i find out who gets sent home and who gets charges pressed against them . .
i think Ailea , Boston & Cookie should go !
what about you ?
welL , remember that blog I posted at the beginning of my entries - well yeahh - WE BROKE UP !
shits not even worth tryinq anymore . Im not mad at all about anythinq with the whole situation & why we broke up , neither is he but - the DUMB SHIT about being friends gets me .
I'm So Sorry , but Im NOT your fucking friend - never will be .
either you love me or leave me alone straight up !
still love you - but , thas just how it's qonna be from now on
got my prom dress ! I'm EXTREEEEEMELY excited ; I dont yet know who I'm qoin with . hmmmm?
anyways - I picked it out !
oh yeah - did I mention the fact that I was GROUNDED
until March15 , No Phone until June . . WTF ?!
lOl - dont ask whyyy , lonq storyy . .
and it's the same reason why WE broke up .
but anyways I'm off that subject !
Im OUTRAGED that I havent yet qotten my acceptance letter from VState .
does that mean that Im not accepted ? well = IDK ?
theres more but Im tired of typinq - so I will update you YET again later .
answer HONESTLY ; i'd like to see some responses .
[ HERE'S MINE ]
What do you wish you name was? Bianca , Marie or Keri
Have you ever had an imaginary friend? never
Are you popular? everyone thinks that I am for some reason ; butI dont think I am .
Do you like being or wish you were popular? no - im fine the way I am .
What's the stupidest thing you've ever done? Ran Away from home .
Most embarassing moment. fartinq when i did a flip on the trampoline - I was sooo embarrased but i tried to laugh it off to make myself feel better .
Worst fear. Loosinq Jeraud .
Guilty pleasure? sleepinq naked with the window open . I feel FREEEE ! lol
Favorite quote? "& if he only knew , im qivinq him just enogh rope to hanq himself with"
Do you consider yourself superficial/ugly/or fat? yes - I think im fat & ugly .
since I have been so stressed out , I took the time out of my weekend to treat myself to a little makeover . I've never been one to wear extensions , but I LOVE the way these look on me !
that good milkyway !
I just started doing my own hair . some people may already know my mother is a Hair Stylist . I just watch & learn .. buy the products & do it myself ! ( I did the tracks myself too ) & my hair is ALWAYS THE BEST ! cut, color, wrap, tracks whatever it may be - (EXCEPT RELAXERS) but, if you'd like me to do your hair & you live in the area ; 1O dollars for a silk wrap . . 2O for weave but, you qotta buy your own hair . . I have everything else . . email [ email@example.com]
but yeahh anyways, I'm FINALY gonna go get my nails done on tomorrow witch is saturday . . maybe I will hit the club up tonight with my girls . . who knowwws - it's all up in the air !
and tomorrow is VALENTINES DAY ! happy valentines day to EVERYONE out there even if you dont have a valentine . . ( i sort of feel bad for you ) but, still have a good one ; i know i wilL !
i wilL update you sometime this week on my day !
it's moments like these which make me realize who my REAL friends are !
Jazmin - im sooo gonna miss you ! - we've gotten even CLOSER over the past month ! it's soo crazyy . .but im gonna miss you & i love youu . .
btw - im visiting florida for my graduation present . . so im gonna seee you agen very sooon !
i wass reading this blog earlier on someone eLse's page - this site is hilarious ! myhead is hurting now from even looking at it ! go visit it ! you'll be weak for daayys !
he cant sing so i dont know WHERE he gets this from . .
lOl -just listen I guess .
The movie wasn't at all what I had expected . It was rather good , but still wasnt what I expected . Big was one NASTY nigga . and I also dont understand why lil'Kim didnt like the way she was "portrayed" in the movie . All I'm sayin is - if the shoe fits ; its mostlikely you . I might go see the movie again really soon because I did miss like the first 20 minutes b/c my boyfriend got mad at me over some dumb shit . . .
go see it if you havent already !